You are stronger

My best friend just got separated from her partner. She has been together with this guy for almost 6 years. He walked her through her best part of life. They survived from a semi- long distance relationship in England for almost 4 years.  But they did not manage to get it through this year. It is going to be a long long year for C and I am questioning myself over and over again. Is love trustworthy? I think the love is trustworthy but the feeling is not. Feelings can change over time but love remains unchanged. You can tell me that isn't feeling should be part of love. Yes, it is. Feeling is part of love but also because it is just a part of love, you love should not change your love towards someone when your feeling changed. I feel sad for you C. I like him a lot as your partner but if God has a better man for you. I will patient be with you and wait ( have fun ) with you along the way. It takes time heal but i know it will because you are stronger.

x

Bertie, paraprostatic cyst

I am studying about paraprostatic cyst. My heart aches because it reminds me of you, Bertie. 

I miss you so much I even open my other blog just to stare at your picture for awhile. 

I am not the one who you spent most of your life with. But I am the one who you spend most of the last part of life journey with. I hope you are happily running, eating hard boil chicken breast and urinating happily in somewhere called heaven. 

Too much emotion to be expressed after the crazy zombie thought. 

This is my little mind drawer that i can tell a little bit of my thought without speaking to someone. I am sitting in front of a computer in the computer lab at 10:30pm. 

I am going to have my first exam on coming Saturday. 

I am going to start revising Male reproduction surgery for small animals. I am extremely exhausted from the notes and stress. 

I can't believe I am start zoning out and think about Zombies. Yes, I am thinking about zombies. The door is at my left hand side. I am staring at the door and thinking what I can use to defend if a zombie burst into the room and start attacking me. 

The first thing i saw is the dirty metal fork from my lunch box. I just had pasta for dinner. Would the fork be able to save me? 

Nah, i need something bigger, so i start to think as if i am playing L4D. Hm,  a stack of paper or a cord attached telephone...? well, I should stop by now. It is just my crazy dream to procrastinate about my reproduction exam on Sat. I need a break ...Seriously.