一個旅人

這次的單身旅程 僅有的孤身隻影
迎著淒風冷雨看風景
把記憶的醱與甜 擠進每一封信件
離愁沒有厭 遺留在每咖啡店

明信片 沒六十字 密密儘是 異地故事
如像有妳傾聽心聲一次又一次
郵匯局在定義 舊日憾事 沒甚了次
或是每件事 昨日我未在意

從前從不懂 全程能相擁
仍然藏著暗湧 是我舊日故步自封
明白從前不懂 全程能相擁
仍然和妳撲空 留下了我一個在痛

不懂得編輯旅程 只記得孤單遂境
還是不怎愛去看風景

花半生追趕太傻 不見得開花結果
還是剩了我 全程念掛妳一個

明信片 沒六十字 密密儘是 異地故事
如像有妳傾聽心聲一次又一次
郵匯局在定義 舊日憾事 沒甚了次
或是每件事 昨日我未在意

從前從不懂 全程能相擁
仍然藏著暗湧 是我舊日故步自封
明白從前不懂 全程能相擁
仍然和妳撲空 留下了我一個在痛

I have just put myself in such a sarcastic situation. I just make myself suffer.
i am such an idiot.

When the first time you did something wrong you can still claim yourself as innocent, but when you did it wrong again i would just call myself stupid.

sigh.

Things i have to do before coming back

1. buy xmas presents to host family
2. Buy present for Cheryl
3. Go to cancel the ANZ debit card
4. withdraw enough money for homestay mum

my computer just does not allow me to type chinese.
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OKAY.

i said when i feel kinda jealous about it, i know it is time for me to step back and leave you.
i thought i m open-minded enough to accept this friendship, unfortunately, i am not sophisticated enough.

maybe i would just leave.

I do not want anymore than I have from you now,
it is because I am a hopeless pessimist who have no confidence in persistant devotion.

我以為我終於學會如何放手.
聽見真相之後, 我禁不住跟V說,

' 我對她真的很失望. 因為你嬲一個人, 總會一天會放下她說過的話和做過的事. 但若果你對一個人失望, 便是死心, 沒有轉彎的餘地. '

V說, ' 對呀, 她是如此不堪的話, 又何苦勉強自己去資繼續和她做朋友呢. '

' 嗯. '

想不到一星期之後, 我仍然和她在說話.
連我自己也不能相信, 她的說話如此惡劣. 我還會真誠的去當她做我的朋友.
我不是大量, 只是忘不了她對過我的好.

忘不了, 你那一晚對我的支持.
但當你繪形繪聲數落我的時候, 你又有想起過我的好 ?

If i am strong enough to resist your call or message, i think i would choose to leave permanantly.
It is not because you have done anything wrong, it is because you are such a big influence to my life and nothing can be altered since my situation does not allow me to ask anything more from you to secure my feeling.